Morning Musings

I love my quiet time in the morning.

Seems I wake up, more often than not with the FID’s.  That’s:  Fear Of Impending Doom.  I don’t know why I seem to “come to” most days in this state, but, thank God (or Good Orderly Direction, or Source, or Universal Intelligence, or whatever you want to call it), I do know what to do about it. Continue reading “Morning Musings” »


April 8

Guilt is not a solution.   Exactly how is more guilt going to translate into something useful, something concrete that I can help myself with?  In fact, guilt can sometimes really be just a way of throwing my conscience a bone.  […]

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April 7

Somehow knowing it is fixable makes it harder not to fix it.  Maybe that is the very reason I sometimes don’t want to know.   With knowledge comes responsibility.  I will feel that much more pressure to be accountable.  Easier to […]

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April 6

My perspective is invariably off.   On the one hand, I can minimize the damage and think I can fix it with a “lite” dinner.  Once when I was serving h’ors d’oeuvres a catering job (OK, OK, so it is a […]

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April 5

Turns out, it is harder to do the very thing I didn’t want to do in the first place – deny myself some future food pleasure – than it is to be fatter.  It is a consequence that has the […]

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April 4

Paying a caloric bill is a bigger price than being fat.  No matter how much I hate the extra weight, denying myself some other food is a harder price to pay than wearing it.  It was only after I started […]

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April 3

Distressingly enough however, many mornings I still wake up defaulted back to the original factory settings.   My mission (should I choose to accept it) is to reprogram the system…yet again.  I am happy to say that lo these many years […]

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