October 3
I can hear my self-delusion more clearly when I try to explain it to someone else. First of all, if it takes four pages of explanation, you can be pretty sure I am rationalizing something. I never even really discuss my good choices. I just make them without comment. But so often, as I am in the middle explaining my self-justification to a third party, even I can hear how ridiculous it sounds. That is one of the benefits of seeking counseling or being in any kind of food support group or having a “dieting buddy” if you will. Alone, I can keep something in my head and have the same fruitless conversations with myself – endlessly it seems. We all know the definition of insanity, right…doing the exact same thing over and over and expecting different results?