April 12
Maybe I don’t really want the responsibility of knowing that I could fix it. Many is the time that once I forced myself to looked at the number – albeit later after I had starved it off – I found that it would have been easy to balance it in my day, or at least week. I really could have compensated. Or just the very looking at it from this perspective has made it an unemotional, mathematical problem I can solve, rather than just a painful emotion that I would really rather run from.