February 12, 2011
Every surrender feels real. I start out every January/Monday/Birthday, etc with these incredibly sincere intentions, and sooner or later end up totally demoralized and fatter. What happens to all that soul searing sincerity? I must do something to de-motivate myself, to diffuse that motivation. I can figure this out, since the answers are in my own history. Lord knows I have accumulated enough examples! No one could be hiding it from me, but me.